I wanted to write a post about my vacation, my trials with my mom, my awesome sister and our newfound resolve not to be manipulated. A 2 hour full primary ashtanga class with Kino Macgregor. Cool finds in Calgary.
But instead I am dealing with the aftermath of a sewer flood. Sunday morning we woke to 3 inches or so of water in our basement. Sewer water.
The city initially indicated it was caused by the construction on the sewer system in the area. Over 100 houses flooded. But now, of course, they are backtracking. So our insurance will cover part of the loss, but not all of it.
Generally I am dealing with this well. I called insurance, clean up, etc. I have talked to neighbours. I did what I could to save stuff. I accept this is beyond my control and have to deal with it.
But then I get low, and feel hard done by. Which is, I suppose, normal. No booze in our house. So there’s that. And I teach 2 yoga classes tonight.
I have chosen santosha or contentment, as a theme for both classes. One is easy yoga. They other yin. Contentment comes from an acceptance of what is and a letting go of what is not. Wishing things were different is not santosha. Finding peace and gratitude in the moment is.
I woke up this morning obsessing about all the things I should have done before the flood (increased insurance, for one) or need to do. I felt shaky and anxious. And then I looked over at my sleeping daughter. 10 years old and snoring beautifully. And I closed my eyes and enjoyed that moment. Feeling her warm body beside me. This morning ritual of thanks always helps me.
With that I Realize this is just material loss. It is distressing, stuff has to be thrown out, including lots of boxes with good memories, but perhaps it is a purge of the old to make space for the new.
And as I write that I realize my new yoga notebook that I bought last week says exactly that on it. Make way for the new.
Santosha. My class quote is from Lao Tzu
“Be content with what you have;
Rejoice in the way things are.
When you realize nothing is lacking,
The whole world belongs to you.”
Stillness and peace