Today is my 8 year sober anniversary.
8 years of continuous sobriety.
When I write it it seems so long, but time has flown by.
When I first quit I didn’t plan to be “sober”. Life was ok, but inside I was suffering. I knew alcohol was making my anxiety unbearable, but any time I tried to cut back my anxiety crushed me.
I knew I was brittle, exhausted and sharp. I hated myself and saw no other way. I had built a strong shield of being fine and overachieving. No one saw me.
I decided to give myself the gift of a year of sobriety. I thought this would fix things and then I could drink again.
Lol. Once the option to drink was removed my eyes were opened. ALCOHOL is the problem, and there is a simple solution. Do not drink it. No matter what.
Not even during the death of a close family member, a wildfire evacuation, mental health challenges, a divorce ot a global pandemic.
Not even on a boring Saturday night.
I am still working on the things that brought me to where I was 8 years ago. Now I know I don’t ever have to do that alone again, and that if I don’t drink, and face the problems, solutions will come.
Thank you all for sharing your journeys. You continue to help me every day and that fills my heart with love and joy.
Stillness and peace.