This weekend marked my Our 17 weeding anniversary. 17 years! Yikes…we must be getting old.
We celebrated by going to see Lamb of god (with corrosion of conformity and clutch). It was actually a bit heavy for me, but I had fun with craig.
Note-Craig’s eyes are red for severe allergies to Calgary. Still both sober here!
Anyway…its been over a month since we evacuated Fort McMurray. We have settled into a semi routine in Calgary. We are living is the most beautiful condo overlooking a river and 2 blocks from work (I returned to work last week in our calgary office…). It is unfurnished, so we are semi camping is a beautiful, upscale home. I love it!
Craig returns to our house last night. It is very smokey. We were hoping our area had avoided too much smoke exposure, but it looks like some heavy duty cleaning will be required. That will be assessed this week and a plan created. Sigh. I am thankful craig is willing to deal with this. I desperately want to go see myself, but I know he will take care of us.
We have decided to stay in calgary until the end of July. There is still a boil water advisory in effect in Fort mc, and the city is in recovery mode. I have been so anxious and undelleted since we left. I feel like I need some consistency. So I am creating it for myself.
I have found a nearby yoga studio -yoga Shala and have been attending Mysore practice every day. It continues to amaze me how much there is to learn. And how significantly the physical practice of yoga can settle my mind.
I see many, many posts about fellow evacuees drinking to cope. Drinking to take their minds off the problems. Drinking.
It all seems sad to me. Sad and tiring. Is doesn’t bode well for the future.
The truth is, there is no relief from anxiety , relaxation or solution in a bottle. Instead, sobriety keeps me aware and prepared to do whatever must come next.
I have found good support in calgary. I am going to try a new therapy to try to resolve some of my constant anxiety. I’m excited to do this. So many opportunities in a big city!
Have a great week.
Stillness and peace