The blood moon last night has reminded me to step back and just be.
I get caught up in doing and sometimes my enthusiasm overwhelms.
At my last therapy session my wonderful therapist made me promise to try to put down the books and enjoy life knowing everything I need is already in me.
And so I have. I have read some fiction and enjoyed it. I lounged around in vegas and relaxed. I watched movies. I felt peaceful.
Of course, the seeker side of me returned. Lol. And with it came that little voice that wants to share everything I know with others. Not because I think I know it all, or at least I don’t think that’s why, but just because I’m excited and enthusiastic. Or I think I’m right. Ouch. I guess that’s my human side showing!
Sometimes this comes across poorly. Sorry.
Anyway, it is a reminder to me that love is the answer. When I am insecure with myself, I need to love myself more, not less. When others are struggling, they need more love not less. When people have opinions I don’t agree with, all they need is compassion and love from me, not debate and disagreement.
So, wherever you are and whatever you are doing, I love you. My only wish is that you find peace and love in your own life.
Stillness and peace
Anne
ainsobriety 
Hi Anne!
I love your insightful comments on all the blogs.
I am so impressed with how you get to the heart of the matter.
It really is true, as soon as I get too hard on myself it’s a clue I need more compassion!
xo
Wendy
Yes. I was prickly this weekend and was being hard on myself…somehow I expect to always feel “zen”. Of course, that would be boring!
I now know of 3 people (including me) putting down the studybooks and reading the fun stuff. It is a trend. 🙂
I hope to hear more of your journey into the land of the whimsical and capricious, into relaxation and realising that you do not need to constantly ‘better’ yourself, you are good enough.
Enjoy!
xx, Feeling
Yes. It needs to last more than a weekend!
Funny, I read (yes) this booklet of Sri Ramana Maharshi -Who am I- that I got from the BSM a while ago. Reading before bed is a NEW protocol. Close computer and read.
It says at Question 25: Does it make sense for those looking for liberation (not sure if that is the correct translation) to read?
Answer: All text indicate that the mind should become quiet in order to be liberated. (…) If that is understood, the need to read endlessly has become superfluous. (not sure if I am translating this correctly.
Ghegheghe, coincedences. Well, I have not understood it and I need a WHOLE lot more understanding than I have so…. I still read. But not with the thought that I ‘need fixing’ anymore and also I have introduced the Artemis Fowl series again. 🙂 Beautiful children’s books which can be read by adults too. Very cool. :-).
xx, Feeling
I want to find a self-help book about finding everything inside me and that I’m ok! Lol I feel your love and send some right back! Lori
Yes, we all definitely need more love in this world! Your love shows thru your thoughtful and inspiring comments 🙂
Thanks for the love. I’m sending love to you too 🙂
I send you love as well, Anne. Annie x
LOL … “Read a novel Lisa,” says my therapist. I’m laughing so hard right now. Funny how we gravitate toward the same solutions so intensely, as if faster and more is the solution. #recoveryfriends #Love, xox Lisa
That actually makes me feel huge relief! It isn’t just me!
I have to sneak in a novel every once in a while to save my sanity. Too much navel gazing makes Sherry a cranky girl. Nothing a new tattoo won’t fix!
HA!
Sherry
Lovely post, very inspiring. I need to learn to ‘just be’. I love you too! X
I wish the same for you! Thank you for all your energy, enthusiasm, and insights!
Last weekend was very much a “doing” weekend for me. I get so caught up in my checklists, as if the things that help me with my recovery are tasks that I MUST accomplish, and they just become another rigid marker with which I measure myself. Add to that all those chores and responsibilities, because what will happen if I don’t get the laundry done today? I just don’t know?!!! I tell myself that I have to journal, and I have to go for a walk, and I have to schedule time for meditation, and I set an alarm on my phone to remind myself… and it kind of defeats the purpose. Thank you so much for reminding me to LAUGH and to BREATHE. To let myself be human in my recovery and in the rest of my life. Sending love back to you xoxo.
This is so me.