I went to a meeting last night. I don’t go very often, I admit. I used to go every Monday. I am not opposed, but Monday nights just seem busy with kids. Knowing my home group is there seems to be enough for me now. I like them a lot. And I feel comfortable and accepted there. They joke a lot about Craig and I being a couple there, but I think most of them are happy to see a family recover together.
My hubby got his one year coin. His year was actually Dec 28, but we have been on vacation, hockey, etc. and have not made it to a Monday since then.
I am really proud of him. He is embarrassed by the attention. I know how he feels. That happiness of reaching the milestone, tempered by the shame of ever having struggled with addiction. But when others reach important milestones I am TRULY and DEEPLY happy for them. Addiction is a mean foe. And overcoming it shows a hell of a lot of self awareness and willingness to put in the effort. So we celebrated with some red velvet cupcakes.
Having two sober adults in the house is interesting. AA slogans are thrown around. Self pity and resentment are called out. Gratitude is prevalent. The daily reflections and the big book are on our coffee table. My daughter told me the other night she doesn’t believe in god – but has a higher power. She is 9. Yikes.
Our time is spent living. Life isn’t perfect, but I wouldn’t change anything. Today is good as is. I will take it and make the most of it. Sober.
I have been watching the Recovery 2.0 Conference. I loved Tommy Rosen’s book. Nikki Meyers had a fantastic talk about her program, Y12SR. It combines 12 step meetings and yoga. I am tempted to go to Seattle to do the training to lead Y12SR groups. Yoga is so important to me. And I think it could be helpful to others. And perhaps it will draw my interest back into the 12 step world.
Stillness and peace.