2014 closes a year of extremes for me. I went from the deep depths of depression to feelings of deep, true happiness.
And I did it all sober.
I can’t begin to remember how far back I started putting drink less on my list of resolutions. Some years I may have tried to hide it as bet healthier, fitter, happier, but what I really meant was gain control over the impact alcohol was having on my life. Finding a way to end those middle of the night wake ups filled with regret, self loathing and promises to never drink again.
I never considered I would find such peace and joy in a sober life. We still have fun. But in different ways, that I can remember and be proud of the next day. I am no longer plagued by a vague feeling of guilt.
If you are going into 2015 hoping to find a life without alcohol, I can only say it exists. The false promises of fun and relaxation booze makes are just that, false. It is the source of you discontent, unhappiness, self loathing and anger.
Give yourself the gift of a period of sobriety. Try it on. Say 90 days.
If you can’t make it to 90 days on your own, get help. Your family, therapy, AA! Smart recovery, whatever.
Take a chance. Happiness and health are there waiting.
To all those who comment on my blog, who just read, who blog themselves, let’s make 2015 a great sober year. One day at a time.
Stillness and peace.