I just finished day 5 of a 10 day yoga teacher training program. My group has already completed the first 10 days in August. When we are done next week I will have my 200 hour yoga teaching certification. And a little knowledge to start delving deeper into my own practice and to hopefully find a way to bring yoga to people in recovery in my city.
Our teacher, Nicki Doane of Maya Yoga, is amazing. Every day I sit by her in class to bask in her calm spirit. She is a regular person, with the troubles of kids and family and life. But she has the wisdom and spirit of a yoga guru and I am basking in it every minute I can. Her teaching is inspiring and invigorating. And I am already looking ahead to find time to get to her studio in Hawaii!
I love it. I am happy. My soul feels at home and safe.
Yoga has played a big part in my personal changes this year. It has provided me with a path to mindfulness, comfort in my own body, a belief in the interconnectedness of all people. It has helped me see myself as a bright, strong person. I am not apart, alone, isolated. That is just my ego trying to keep me in the dark.
It has helped me find comfort in self care. Taking care of myself is part of my role in the world. It definitely helps my immediate family for me to be serene and positive. To be confident.
Occasionally I find myself looking around, almost surprised at where I am. Was it really only a year ago that I was is a dark, deep hole? From which I really thought I might never emerge. That it would suck me down until I no longer had the energy to keep trying to get out? That was a horrible place to be and one I hope never to return.
It seems almost impossible to believe…
The awakening I have experienced this year has been that profound. I have a lot of living left to do. And there is so much left to learn.
If you are still looking at that dark abyss of addiction or shame or fear, I hope my story will give you a little boost to keep you on the sober path. It can take you anywhere you want to go. Every day is a new adventure!
Stillness and Peace