It is one year ago today that I put down my wine glass and started living life again.
If you saw me on the street you might not notice the change. I still wear the same clothes. I still have the same job.
But if you look close you will see the differences. My eyes are brighter. My hands are steadier. My smile come more readily and lights up my entire face.
Inside, my aura has changed from deep sticky green to a vibrant yellow. The cruel voice that forever criticized me and berated me for being a failure, not good enough, not doing enough, is quieted.
I look at the world through clear eyes and with a heart that feels full of love and compassion for myself and for everyone I meet.
I spent the day at yoga teacher training. I love every moment of it. It supports and enriches my body and soul.
Tonight I will take my cake and get my one year chip. AA is just another avenue of support for me. And if I have learned anything this year it is that you can never have too much support. Sure, we can all put up a strong front and pretend we are ok doing things on our own. But I have come to realize the only person losing in that situation is me.
So I use it all. AA, yoga, blogging and the BFB.
If you are new on the journey, my only advice is it is worth every tear, every missed party and every lost booze buddy. The joy of recovery is there for all of us.
Thank you all for your comments on my posts. Every word of support and assistance is deeply appreciated and reminds me that we are all really one big community.
And although I look forward to what the next year might bring, I know we only have today. And today is a really good day. I am going to enjoy all of it!
Stillness and peace