There has been a lot of blogging recently about taking a break and drinking again. About moderating. About wanting just one nice glass of wine.
What’s my opinion, you ask, lol…here it is. Take it’s for what it’s worth.
I think if we could moderate, if we could control the amount we drank, when we drank or what we drank, we wouldn’t be writing a sober blog. We would be out doing other things, not thinking about drinking or not drinking. Not blogging about our attempts to find an escape from addiction. Because that is what this is. The inability to control the amount we drink is addiction. Period.
That one glass of wine you really want, because it tastes so delicious and goes so well with dinner….what if I told you there was an alcohol free alternative that tastes EXACTLY the same? Would you be willing to accept the alternative? The truth is, most of us are kidding ourselves that we only want to enjoy that one glass. We do not want the alcohol free substitution because it doesn’t numb us and let us drift away to a place where we have no worries or cares. Even though we know that is just an illusion, and the worries and cares will be waiting, along with regret, shame and anxiety, in the morning.
Overcoming addiction is both simple and difficult. Simple. DO NOT DRINK. Difficult. DO NOT DRINK. It requires, work, effort, help and time. Addiction is a sneaky and dangerous disease.
I think of it like extreme dieting. At one time I did a very restrictive diet. It allowed almost no choices. You ate their food. Period. It worked very well for weight loss. And when you were doing it, and believing in it, it was easy. No thinking required.
But mess around with it, cheat…it was one of the hardest things in the world to restart. The mind is crafty. It lulls you into thinking – I did this before, I can do it again. But that is a hard thought to overcome. You are forever undermining yourself with plans to start again tomorrow. Don’t we all know about starting again tomorrow? I had a million day ones. I don’t want another one.
Primrose at Taking a new path has it right. If you have some sober time and are thinking a glass of wine would be an excellent idea. IT ISN”T.
Thereis a whole life of freedom, peace, self acceptance and joy waiting for you. But every drink pushes it further away.